Just wanted to say/type this...

Ok…so here I am...in the middle of a very busy week and month…I have Mid –terms…yikessss...just to let you know that realized that I’m fortunate and I’m happy being me..

I am determined not to be unhappy or let the sulky mood engulf me and destroy my little happy life….

I am fortunate for having an awesome family and the most caring bunch of cousins...

The craziest and sweetest friends…

And random people who walk in to my life suddenly and love me to death sometimes for no apparent reason…

All these made me realize that I’m a-one-of-a-kind girl...lucky…sooo lucky…to have such wonderful people around me...

Who have the ability to lift me up each time I fall…who are always there to offer their shoulder for me to cry on…who are so concerned about my happiness…who are also willing to watch me stumble fall and then watch patiently while I struggle myself up the crazy hill…and then pat my back and say…see I told you your one strong girl…

I love attention as any girl but the attention that I crave the most is from the people I admire the most and I’m getting enough..But I would love more…:P

I realized that I can love...i can just love and love…and I think it’s great...

I realized that I can give...and give and give...

And that I have heaps of patience...soo much that some of my friends call me crazy…

And I also realized that some people actually find me interesting and sort of important... ;)

All this with the fact that I’m trying my best to be a good girl, loving daughter, and a super friend make me feel that I’m doing pretty fine in life for now…J

Sooo good byeee..Tears…Good Byeee Unhappiness..you were patient teachers who made me learn important lessons in life..may be the hard way..but still you kept me company…helping me grow into a better,stronger,happier and a lovely person…

Big hug to my self…and to all..

Life is life itself..sooo

Smile… :)

God Bless…

Embracing Loneliness....

So here we have started serious classes again...

Back to books and to top it all off we have mid-terms..:(

Therefore i have sunk into my books with horrific determination and spend long nights nodding away on tons of coffee..:)

These are the times when you actually feel aware of your surroundings and you get to re-collect your thoughts very clearly...

It has been great for me...since i came here...i'm doing well..

I'm crazyyyyy...addicted to fun...but i also keep track of my studies...and is now topping the class...:D

But for the past few days...some things began to dawn on me..things that were before my very eyes which i conveniently ignored...because...

Firstly because of the rush of events happening around me..

Secondly because it was less hurtful to imagine that you misheard things...

Well jealousy is a curse.Since i'm THE crazy person and the less studious(in appearance) my girls have been totally cool with me..but since I've started topping the class now they have grown indifferent towards me and hardly hang-out with me.

These things really..hurt..but i guess it's just life-phases.

My roommate uttered to me the other day that she doesn't want to go anywhere with me alone without the other two because i apparently know too many people and will abandon her.

I'm not an Angry, Rude and mean person like that to do some thing horrible as that...

So lately it's been just me and the books like old times...:)

somethings just turn back to the old routines..

Now instead of happy study sessions - i find myself alone self studying...

Instead of waking up in the mornings together-i find myself still forgotten and when i inquire about it...i get excuses as i apparently slept late and all...

I also find myself walking alone to various activities in uni - instead of the happy quartet...

Not that it stops me from doing what i want to do...:)

The thought just lingers in there you know...and surfaces in moments like now..when all my roomies drop out of going on a tour because one other set of girls are not coming and don't even tell me...

I guess since i mixed around with the Colombo crowd a bit more than the other girls (the Colombo crowed are a bunch of happy malli's) they feel alienated...It's hard to be different..and i know that...i feel the same...but i'm trying...

Also i think i'm going to break the heart of some special person..i just cant pretend...i have lost the spark after what happened...and he deserves to know that....:'(

But it's ok...i'm going to be alright..

I just want to be alone for a while...or may be not..company can be the best medicine right now..

I'm just going to embrace loneliness with Joy, Pride and Dignity as a changing phase of life...:)

To happier times to come!!!

God Bless...

It's Party Time!!!

welcome back...

So here i was running back home after church..with around 5 boys carrying mega bottles..two huge cakes...buns and candles....

Halfway through i call home to find out that everyone is ready..

we run faster..i can hear the poor boys cursing away.:)..i dash to our building..i hear the noise and the raket the 50 invitees our making inside our tiny 2 bedroom apartment...Omg..i can hear them scream 3 floors above to almost the entrance..

How am i going to make them shoosh..

and i can see them standing against the windows and sight seeing...lol...They are supposed to act as if they are not at home..

But then again..

50 Boys and Girls cant keep their mouths shut i guess..

I enter the apartment breathless with the boys trailing behind me.

they leave the stuff in the kitchen and go join their friends...

SG, CP and i begin setting up the food table...our catholic mallis come help stick candles on the cakes and then..they sit down comfortably in the kitchen and eat burgers in the name of being helpful...ughhhhhh..BOYS....

Then i shoosh the crowed and call my friend who has been babysitting SL to bring her home....

then i call SL and tell her that we just got home..and that we are too tired to come if she wouldn't mind coming home with our other friends and that they can stay over for dinner at our place...

she agrees...

And then comes the really hard part of making the people quiet..

we dump the boys into the hall..and the girls in to our bedroom so that it wont be crowded...

and i tell them to please keep quiet as the Birthday Girl is on the way..it works for like 10secs..before they fall into loud chatter again..:((((

i leave them alone..send a boy to control them..

then suddenly the whole house goes quiet and i got nervous..went to check on the door to find the boys doing a rehearsal...awwwwwwwww..how sweet right???

then the door bell ring...

OMG..

i quietly open the door with nervous smiles to find another one of our friends at the door step..

hehehehe...you can kill the boy....expect them to give you mild heart attacks..

we resume cooking...

And the noise gets louder..

I walk into the hall ask them to keep it down ...

goes to cook...

still shouting...walks back into the hall..

begs to be quiet..it works...they stay quiet...

but not for long....

i get really MAD...i walk in again..this time armed with a butter knife..(lol..i didn't mean to take it...hehehehe..)threaten the boys..

they freak out....and also feels sorry for me...

then i get a call from my friend saying that they are almost here..

i tell the boys...

move them away from the windows..

switch off the unwanted lights..

and wait patiently...

SG is giggling nervously..

CP is pacing nervously..

Me....hehehehe....lol...was really excited...

then rings the door bell...i look from the peephole...then figure out that everyones coats are hanging on our rack..

and then hurriedly stack them away in a nearby empty cupboard..wow...what a close shave...

I open the door...

invite her in..make small talk about church and all and casually lead her to the hall...and Open the door.........

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SURPRISE!!!yells 53 voices in union...followed by the most loudest version of Happy Birthday to you....

also Followed by the grand entrance of the HUGE double birthday cake..all lit and looking niceeeeeee...

Camera's flash....

People are laughing.....teasing and grabbing at SL...

Meanwhile SL is in a state of shock..and just keeps on smiling in the most maniac manner...lol...

it was simply awesome..all went according to plan...yeppi..we were happy....

Happy in our hearts..happy in our heads..

happy in everything..

Then came the cutting of the cake...with another round of happy birthday..sung at the top of our lungs...

Watching from my corner...i see many things...

I see pure Joy radiating from SL's face as she is about to make a wish before blowing the candles...

I see our friends happy..enjoying each others company....

I see SG and CP holding hands happily savoring the success of our plan...

I see people Happy...Happy as we are meant to be..enjoying simple blessings in life..which we often forget..

The company of our loved ones..the celebration of Human Lives...and the existence of Love in the world..

Then after the cake is cut i get dragged into the live version of life....

Cake has to be cut...and SL goes around the whole room feeding everyone cake...

I take the responsibility of cutting the cake and the others serve it around..

the people start the chatter...

and we all join in the fun..chattering bugging each other...

And guess what...

The food disapeared..60 Hot Dogs and 75 Burgers...!!!!:D

Then the boys wanted to sing..so we decided to take them outside to the adjoining Basketball/Football court for them to shout since it was nearly 10pm...

we sent SL to our neighbors with Birthday Cake and she got a gift from one of them..nice right??

well it was an unmentionable gift..!!!!lol..want to take a gift..SL quickly grabbed it and ran into the room to deposit it safely..and guess who she meets on the way..

A parade of boys..who...since they cannot stand being curious..grabbed it from SL's hand..we went to her rescue..CP got hold of it..and stood on top of it...

Three boys were on the floor tugging at it...SG was tugging at it from another end..and i was tugging the T-shirts of the boys..but alas!!!..the mightier boys won and they happily passed it around...in inspection..and there was SL surrounded by all twisting in embarrassment...LOL..

count on your neighbors to be nice people right..lol..

Then we all locked the door to go to the court and into the chilly nights in our coats...

By the time CP and i joined the gang a baila session was in full swing...

after getting bored of that we opted to play..mind you it's around 11pm...

We agreed on playing Ice and water..awesome game...the teams were Girls Vs. Boys..

Omg WASN'T IT FUN...

We got the chance to take all our revenge on the Boys...we slapped them..hit them...dragged them...Dropped them.. threatened them...fell with them..knocked on them..somersaulted..and ran around the court like mad women,,,,,it was fun..

Yours truly was the first to fall...hehehehe

I was chasing a boy to Ice him(freeze)and another boy came right at me from another direction.. knocked on him..!!!!and i went flying and fell on my back flat on the ground!!lol...hehehehehe.. embarrassing is not the word..especially when the said boy is standing unharmed..and the whole court goes quiet wondering if i'm dead or alive..i get up...cheering goes up..and we run again..

We seemed to take ages to freeze the boys..

but we all get frozen in a matter of minutes...

We knew the secret..THE BOYS CHEATED..

even after we freeze them they run..helllooooooo..cheaters...

hehehehe

Many fell...many boys were complaining that the girls slap hard...

one boy complained saying that a girl hit him so hard that he is sure his sternal bone is cracked..lol..

another boy got all his buttons ripped off the whole shirt by another girl..

I myself was guilty of ripping the sleeve off another boys shirt..oopppssss..well accidents do happen right???

well all in the name of fun right,,,,

and we had an awesome time..

Then we played Kabadi...started off well..then the game got rough when the boys had to go after the girls..so we gave up...

Oooops..Danger..

almost 1am...i guess our noise was too much..there were people near the basketball court..one was talking on a phone...ooops...were we going to get arrested...nnnooooooooo:(

One of the seniors who could speak the language came and told us that the person is calling someone..about some kids who are playing and who he thinks are immigrants...HEELLOOOOO

we are Students...Like University Students!!!

And our senior went up to him..spoke to him..apparently one of our neighbors is the minister of sports..coooool...right he was the one who was speaking on the phone...he was delighted to know that we knew the language and our seniors beautifully handled the situation....they even got to know that the minister was an alumni of our university and guess what..few minutes after chatting with him..

he brings us Footballs...AT 1 AM..and says go ahead enjoy!!!..lol..

This obviously excites the boys...and they opted to play a game of football...while we where happily cheering them on...

Then back to Ice and Water...3AM..oops...time to go home and we are all really beat-up...

then we send off the girls with boys to drop them off...

Then the people who lived nearby our place stayed back later...to sing more slow soft songs in the chilly night under a dusting of stars and a beautiful moon....

It was truly heavenly to just lay back on the dirty ground..with no-care in the world and just sing and sing and sing.....thinking long but wonderful thoughts about...

US...OUR FUTURE..OUR HOMES..and finally OUR UNFULFILLED DREAMS...

it was certainly a day to remember...

a day that was more perfect than we could possibly have hoped for...

so perfect that it would certainly have been one of the days snatched from the time of Eden..

Except that the gala event ended with all of us singing nursery rhymes..from "twinkle twinkle little star"...to "put your right hand in..put your right hand out...and shaking our butts around to the hokey pokey"....lol...

Happy smiles...

dont you just love being Kids...

God Bless..:)

The Day - episode 2

Then...:)

Finally after believing that all things had been done...we went about the day check listing all the things we should have done and have to do before the party....

you can find me staring into the blank computer screen and event planning...CP distractingly writing lists instead of copying her notes...and SG...downloading songs off youtube to play at the party...

The last day all food was bought....and stocked at a friends apartment...The boys went and brought the two cakes in the metro...God knows how...:) and we were happy..because everything was ready..but then we realize that the people... especially the girls have not yet confirmed...and i giddily stood near the phone all evening before the party...:S

Then the boys rang me up and said that all the girls consented in coming and not to worry as they will all drop them home in the night...sooo we started breathing normally...(tried..;)>>)

Then one of the boys called and said that there might be a problem with the Muslims as we forgot to see if the food was halal...SHOOOT...and then we were rushing about trying to figure out if the sausages and burgher buns were halal..and figured that they were not...and we opted to arrange something else for them...but one of our friends said..just dont say anything..if they ask just ignore..hehehehe..omg...we are soo going to hell..:(

but i hope God will understand..:(

Then there were the vegetarians..and SG said she would prepare chopsuey for them...and mind you she exclaimed this in front of the to-be-b-day girl and she was like...why are you making chopsuey for so and so...and we said that since they are vegi people they are having a hard time eating only salads and that we are going to do them a favor...lol..:D.. another lie...and i believe by this time Satan would have started constructing us a separate level in hell..:P

Then we figured that we did not have anything to distract her with at midnight when we wish her...therefore as soon as she went off for a nap...SG and CP left me to baby-sit her and ran to buy chocolates...

Then after they return SG being the most creative out of us...busies herself with the construction of a card and CP and i leave the house to tell our neighbors that we are having a dinner for some of our friends the next evening...

Hehehe...we told our neighbor from below...and luckily the daughter of the family understood English and translated for the dumbfounded parents who smiled and nodded their approval...thank God..One down..Two more to go...

The next neighbor and the husband didn't understand a word of English..

and it is essential that they know because they live on the opposite flat from ours...and with great difficulty we tried our best to explain and finally gave up..

the woman felt sooo sorry for us and then called the neighbor who lives on top of us and thankfully she understood a little English..

She still didn't know the word "Friend"..and i had to tell her that it was my b day and that people were coming for dinner...she understood merrily explained that Georgians are very hospitable and that not to worry that they are fine with it all...and we were happy...:D

And mind you this whole conversation took place opposite our doorstep..and when we rang the bell back to the apartment can you guess who opened the door for us...

SL....aka...THE BIRTHDAY GIRL...

and she wanted to know what the commotion was outside...

i said the first thing that came to my mind..i told her that one of our neighbors who have not seen us often thought that we were baggers and stated questioning us..and the other neighbor came to rescue us...:S.as if that is likely to happen..lol..but still thats all i could utter while CP gave me the most Panic-look i have ever seen...phew..she was too sleepy to argue and just believed us...

And as i enter SG calls out..did you get the flour...????lol...hehe that was the excuse she gave SL..for our absence..lol..the funny thing is we went and brought flour the day before...hahahaha...Thankfully..that didn't register on SL's mind either..she gave us a sleepy smile and went for a wash...

hehehehe..and then we were too agitated to even whisper and we bursted out laughing at our close shave..lol..and SL was yelling at us from the bathroom asking what the joke was and we lied again for sure..i just cant remember what i said...lol...hehehehe..too many lies to remember..

then we all went to study....at 11.30pm SG walks out to her room followed by CP and i'm left alone with SL...clueless...and then the very Smart me sent a sms to SG asking whats happening and she has left the phone on the study table and gone..it beeps loudly right under my nose...lol...hehehe..i hastily snatched her phone before SL can see my name on her screen and ran off to give her the phone...to find them wrapping the chocolates...

i left them and came back and resumed my work...:)

midnight still the two didn't come...SL goes on fb and says ...OMG..people remembered my b day!!!!and i'm like ....acting like i'm deaf because i cant wish her without the others right..i felt like hiding underneath a coconut shell...

then finally they arrive at 12.45am....on the b day..and we tell her that since we are broke it's a tiny gift..

gave her the card..

sang happy birthday embarrassingly...and then...put music..

Baila..

and danced in our pajama's till 3am...lol..

hehehe...funky right...and took loads of crazy pictures..:)...

And went to bed dog-tired...

got up on birthday morning...

Made kiribath...which was a bit like beri-bath..lol...ate with katta sambol...which was great!!!

then set about arranging the house in the most unsuspecting manner..

one went for a bath and washed the toilet..

one made all the beds in the rooms...

i set about collecting everyones books and storing them away...

and then i logged on fb...

suddenly SL laughs and says that one of the girls are asking her if she should come at 8 or 7.45 tonight...on fb..

i go scream(type in full capitals)..at the girl and tell her to keep her mouth shut..apparently she forgot the "Surprise" part of the birthday party...lol...phew..(wipes invisible sweat)...

And then we set off to watch another Match...

then we told SG to stay at home to further clean it up...and she expertly faked a cold and took vitamin c..hehehehe...

Then we toook SL under our wing and set off...we told SL that since it's Thursday we have to go to church..and after the match we planned to send her off to another friends apartment.. because we might get late to come home..

Match went well...Another victory fro the proud Lankans...:)

and after the match we told her that we are going to church and she wanted to come...with us...after making more excuses we sent her off...and me and CP set off to are other friends place to start cooking...

Then call from mother...asking to go to church..

i dress...start peeling onions and...boys come..resume cutting of onions..starts crying...lol...and i leave..

SG comes takes command with CP in the kitchen with a troupe of boys and girls to help...

We rush back from church..with the cake and drinks...and lots of more buns...

Hurries....pickup people on the way...It's 8.00pm..

It's LATE...

WE ARE RUNNING LATE...

Makes phone calls....gets the people to our apartment..and hurries..there..

Tune in again...for Episode 3..:D

God Bless...

Happy Smiles...

Pre Surprise party!!! episode 1

Ok..sooo i'm going to update you all on how my big surprise party for SL, my everloving Rommie went...

too much details sooo here goes the 1st episode...

Well it is Really hard to organize a surprise birthday party for you roommtae...especially when she sleeps right across the room from you...shares the same kitchen...same bathroom...same living room...same study room..and Same classes at uni...ungh..hehehe

But yet..i was determined to make this happen..frankly because she is one of those people with an extra-ordinarily big heart...and also because she puts up with me...:)

well it started as a master plan from me...we wanted to throw an afternoon tea party for her...One easy thing was that she was the only Buddhist in our apartment and had to spend long Sunday mornings alone while we wen to church..and these were the times when the master planning took place...

And your's truly wanted to invite almost all the Sri lankans we knew over here...sometimes being away from home and from the people you always felt safe with can drain the life out of you..so yours truly wanted to make it a special day for all...especially for SL...

and we started off...figured that our tiny pockets were not enough to feed a bunch of VERY hungry students and we set about asking everyone to contribute...willingly only...and made sure that everyone knew that it was a surprise party...lol..

well smaties as our batch-mates can be..you know they find the most suitable times time to come and toss money at you with weird smiles...you know like right in front of SL's face..and she's like why is he/she giving you money..and as panicking as CP can get..she goes speechless..i have to mutter something and distract her..like giving fake excuses saying that that certain boy has a crush on CP and gave her a note or something..lol(How lame right...)but it worked...

And then there was all the Sunday shopping we had to do...right after church..telling SL that since it's like the lent-season..there are loads of special stuff happening..then with the help of two malli's we went shopping...got her a gift...after making the boys cry out loud and exclaiming that they would never go shopping with women..lol...come on we have to be kinda choosy and go for the best right...ironically it was them who found the perfect gift for SL..:D..guys have their lucky moments..

Then it was ordering the cake...at a bakery...Two huge cakes to feed 50 hungry-suger-loving mouths...the bakers was Georgian speaking...:(and we spent a whole hour sigh-languaging and point speaking...to make them understand our requirement...but finally we succeeded...with crossed fingers...:)

Then the menu...nothing fancy just hot-dogs, burgers,(home-made), biscuits, chocolate and Date tarts...and lots of pepsi,lemon miranda and apple soda...

shopping for sausages, burger fillings, tomatoes, onions, biscuits lead us back to wagsal...and SG,CP and we were accompanied by the two catholic malli's to wagsal..

we entered the chocolate area..and came across one stall which had good stuff...

Let me tell you that i'm into the tiny size...at a height of only 5 feet and No inches(Big sigh) and the malli's were tall...one a thundering 6 feet..and as we were gaily chatting while choosing the chocs...the stall owner..(a woman) came up to us and asked in intelligible Georgian..if we were together...as in girlfriend and boyfriend... embarrassed i instantly answered "Araa"(No in Georgian to the amused smiles of the rest of the Paradise clan)...then she asked if we were MARRIED!!!omg...hehehe...i freaked out like majorly..then the other malli came for my rescue..then the woman approached our 6 footer and smiled...FED him a chocolate...eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwww..and another woman in another stall came up to him and showed the stall owner and gave a thumbs up...i freaked out and ran to the next stall while the boys enjoyed the hospitality..yucky....the woman must be around 40yrs...and then she asked if the two Boys were Gay..:S...and was happy to realize they were not...and then later SG, CP and i found ourselves dragging the boys out of that stall....and bursting out laughing..:D

then there was all those fake masses which CP and i went for in the form of shopping for buns..Omg...lieing during lent was going to make me end up my own special kind of a hell..:)..i comforted my self saying that it was all for a good cause..:P

Then there was all the times when we use to have cryptic phone convo's with other students...and asking them to come online...hehehe...to explain the situations...

the secret meetings in the kitchen and living room when SL has gone to take a wash or sleeping..

The horrible slip-ups by SG and CP who got horrendous stares and kicking from me...hehe..

Finally SL thinking we are cornering her and being sad the whole day before the actual event...and CP comforting us saying..just one=more day and she will be happy...:)

The cricket-matches we went for..in which all the boys surrounded me...bugged me..(acted like it)to get more info....

And finally a cricket match falling on the very day evening..:(

what too do..we cannot shift it to a morning as no-one would get up...so it was scheduled to begin at 8PM..after match and Thursday mass..:(

Thanks to the boys who dealt and took responsibility in dropping all the girls home safely..it was planned..after much heated arguments between all of us...

Then...

to be continued!!!

God Bless..

:)