SOOOO....
I'm back to normal...not that i was ever normal...more like back to being mee....:)))yeyyiii
lets say i'm back to being the extra-ordinarily normal meeee...:D
sooo studies are coming back to me...and i'm having fun..wasting less time...and i take time to play and also talk to people more often...sooo yeah...i'm getting back on-track...not really there....but i know i'm getting there....
1 more week for my friends to come back...and i survived two LONGGGG..months without them around..i guess this wasteful vacation did make me realize how much i love working and studying and the whole exhausted feeling of being buried in studies...i like it in a totally normal way...:P
sooo far..life is going easy...except....some stuff...:))
well lets see...this is what it is...Where i stand...
1st year Med student...doing well sooo far...looking all good...:)))
Torn away from my awesome friends who loved me to death and who practically was around me to help me out of all the crazy things i get into...the type of friends who finishes your sentences for you..and who were just a text away...
And sometimes it's hard to keep in touch with them...i dont blame them...but life sure is crazy....
It sometimes blindly throws you out..and you have to sort of start all over again..
It's kind of fun you know...building up your own identity...and all...
Then life i guess is also trying to make me realize that i have to step out of my comfort zone...the friends who knew me...well enough to help me out even without asking....because i feel really uncomfortable asking people for help...but i'm always ready to help anyone else...
Sooo life is playing this cruel trick on me...asking me to open up and make close friends like i used to have...and to live life with them...sooo i'm going to do that...hopefully...
Because i guess it's time to change a little bit..change is a good thing sometimes...:)))
And then i have to realize certain things about this KIDS issue...
I have to confide in a girlfriend...because sometimes boys dont think like girls...and girls think a lot right...soo I've decided to open up to someone...who can probably help me out with the different stuff i stumble upon...
who said life and Love is easy right...
And i kind of hinted to my mum....about the KID...and so did he to his parents...:S
My Mum...likes the KID a lot...BUT ...the age...she was concerned,,,she said that since i'm the elder one it's going to be really difficult for me later in life...to think about it a lot...her exact words were..."Putha think about it ...i dont want you to get hurt...people will cause problems for you..laugh at you...and since it's a TWO year gap i dont think his parents will like it..."
:((((
well...now i dont know...
she also said..."Putha he is a nice boy..i like him a lot...i wish he was your age or elder..i really do...but think about it...before you do something.."
Usually when a mum says think about it..it means they are scared for you..and that they want to protect you...so they dont like it...:((she said she was sad that the KID is so much younger to me...
The KIDS's Parents...."She is a lovely girl...only if she was younger.."
Big sigh...so i still didn't tell the kid how hurt i am of this...since he is all psyched up about coming back to see mee.after not being around for 2 months...
This is where i stand???
what do i doo???
What do i say????
All i know is...i like my life right now...and i have realized the meaning of ..
"Dont let yourself go...everybody cries...and everybody hurts..."
So...i'm blank right now..i mean...i'm just gonna live life...and really live it...enjoy it...no matter what...time lost cannot be taken back...
And People are the most important...you can relive the memories that you treasure the most...sooo i'm going to make more memories...loads of them...
KID and ME..i really dont know...may be i will talk to him...and see..what we can do...:(((
it's just one side of life...
what do you think???
Big hugs to all...i guess we all hit the rough bottom sometimes...this is to all those times...
God Bless...
